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Desenfocada . Sin rumba, vivo en un limbo todos los días. Creo que
116 miles between you and me. 116 reasons why you couldn’t commit. We spent two
weeks in heaven and 8 disputes and lustful chaos. You say goodbye without breaking the
news, you kiss me and make promises to come back. Yet the only thing that returned
was a stranger filled with contempt at the sight of me. I wonder why you kissed me
like you wanted me when really all you wanted was to tear me to pieces just to see the
blood rush out of me. You’re amused with my pain, annoyed at any sight of humanity in
me.
01/22/24
Be aware of the constant extremes you set out for yourself that end up limiting you.
The goal is not to burn yourself out. Don’t run by toxic fuel and jealousy, regret.
What powers you? When are you powered by love and positivity? Who do you blame
for your life going the direction it’s in? What stories do you tell yourself where you
01/19/24
Everything I want to do is easy to do but because I go around the block out of fear, I
get traumatized and work 10x as hard when I should've just followed my instincts
Body language
The only place I can reach true transparency with you, don’t
understand why your trust issues always come with lusting traps
You say i love you when you’re inside, scream you're the only one when
But as soon as the testosterone drops down, you’re back to the mind
But baby keep your distance cause from afar, I forget to miss you
You swear you’re elevating in life when really you’re dragging your
Our calamities mark new beginnings, you’re scared of the chaos you’re
orchestrating like Eden wasn’t just the peak of another failed Utopia.
somehow I’m stuck playing the sore loser in this game of indifference.
It’s a struggle trying to catch the sun's rays in a jar, like it is to keep
Pillow talk has its hours, and you know yours is almost up.
Cause I’m a fool for thinking I could make this work, sometimes an
immovable object should just retain its mystery and remain untouched.
I know sometimes it feels like we are forsaken but god just is preparing us for bigger
11/23/23
I wanna write you love letters in Spanish that I’ll have to later translate cause
I’ve gone around the world thrice trying to find a soul with the same frequency.
But see you were made just for me, your ancestors have carefully prepared and
Even though we’re not done cooking this recipe for success, meeting you has
Got me wanting to fix my credit, pay off my debt and start a family with you.
I’m writing a love letter at 7am because I can’t sleep knowing there’s no evidence
You teach me love like I’ve never experienced it, make me feel something new,
something old.
I pray to God every night to give me the grace and love to handle your heart
with care, to please protect you in your path and make sure you’re never led
astray.
I want to thank your mom for stitching you together for 9 months, for building
your character and giving you her life force energy so you could fusion into this
Yet when your anger is taking center stage, your words pierce through my soul
You inspire me to seduce you, to sharpen my wits so we always have a new topic
to dissect.
11/05/23
llegar para bien. Tu orgullo, una bendición que solo puertas de riqueza sabe
abrir. Que tu cuerpo sea hecho para protegerme, elevarme a nuevos niveles
de placeres; únicamente para mi. Que tus manos puedan crear un futuro de
oro y bajar el cielo a mis pies. Que mis manos y mis labios siempre
11/19/23
pijama ni lenguaje. Solo besos que me llenan de calor y ojos que me iluminan
el alma como una iguana en el Sol. Jure que nunca más iba a caer por
palabras baratas de nadie pero tus acciones son tan escandalosas que no paro
de darte la hora. El reloj contigo ni funciona, solo sé que con cada suspiro
You can’t make a deal with the devil and get mad when he comes to collect.
10/26/23
H e said he was real sorry. H e knows he fucked it up bad and if I want to leave
he’d understand why. But baby you ripped my heart out of my chest and slammed
it on the ground
looked to the moon as my witness, she saw the whole thing play out. My lover
was talking at me, not to me. My lover turned a cruel stranger in a second, I
keep replaying his words like a mantra. Trate de negociarlo con el karma, pero
me dijo que todo se paga. No goodbyes were said, no real apology was uttered.
Just like that he threw my attention, time and effort on the floor as of it didn’t
matter at all. The kisses in the morning dew when the city was still sleeping, the
to you when you were never mine. I knew I was competing for your love but I
didn’t know I never stood a chance at all. It’s funny I asked you if this was just a
pastime for you, and you denied the words. As I break down everyday he builds
his life away with another. Once again I turned myself the estranged mistress
for a couple moments of intimacy. I laugh when I cry, I take one step forward
and one remains intact. I’m still waiting for you to come back and tell me it was
all a lie or that at least you’ll remember me for the rest of your life. But
instead it’s me that’s missing that spark in your eyes. I can’t even hate you, I just
cry all the time. I curse at my gods, I can’t stand the sight of myself in the
face, my life. I just sing our song on repeat, and let the tears roll out. I spark up
Everytime i sense the memories attacking my fragile mind. God please forgive me
for hurting myself so bad. I promise I want to be better. I look for his car every
time I step outside. Am I crazy for caring so much about someone? H e fooled me
countless times, shame on me for letting it get this far. I just don’t know how to
move forward when I don’t think I’m deserving of anything now. I don’t think
I’m meant or built for relationships if I’m honest. I think I should run away
from everyone, men are one of the cruelest creatures ever invented. Women don’t
fall far behind. I’m scared of people, but I’m scared of myself more. I see how
bad I’m hurting for something I did all on my own. What did I do to deserve
such terrible luck in love? While the world lives out my dreams, ungrateful and
undeserving of them, I settle on the fact that I’ll never get a happy ending. Not
as long as I’m still breathing. I don’t want to be bitter. But I don’t see the point
in connecting anymore. It’s best to not pretend and just leave it alone. A dildo
will do the job. What’s the point of pleasure, of happiness, of anything? In even
being alive? What’s the point of investing in something that will leave when you
want it most?
08/19/23
Be my peace. My safe haven, when I breathe you in, I breathe in clarity, love , peace of
mind. Our love will never go out of style, you will always be the most handsome person
in a room to me. You are the sun in my day, you scare the shadows away. Supportive in
anything I identify with or try, sex will be mind blowing every time. Like a cat in heat,
a ladder of euphoria that only get higher and higher, when you climax I will hold you
tighter. You are the moon in my nights, I will always seek your light for shelter. Like
water for my soul, aphrodisiac down my throat, you leave me in a trance with just a
kiss. Skin ghastly white, like the underbelly of a shark. Eyes stormy grey, blue but
business-lifestyle of it. Idk but you have power. You walk like you can kill someone and
you know it. When I’m with you I always feel safe, there’s no threat that can reach me
in your presence. You have a wide-back. Moody. Like a bull, Taurus. A reflection of
me. A treasure map to paradise. Only death can do us apart. My soul mixes into yours
like gum on a hot summer day in the pavement. Penetration every whole, molding into
you like a shield. I will be your armor. A cold exterior, bratty. But with me he will
melt in the heat of our fire, attraction, intensity will put him down with adrenaline.
Generous and thoughtful with me, in all his efforts, financial ways. Gift giver, spoils
my inner kid
08/12/23
I’m gay
No really I am, but when I try to stake my claim on the world, the words
bubble over like acid firing up from my esophagus to my throat and all that
to do nothing at all, after all it’s easier to balance the weight of regret. I
monsters, angels and smoking mirrors. I’ve told myself maybe if I stopped
burning ganja the smoke would clear up in my space but one things for
certain. The confusion lingers even when I can see things from a Birds Eye
view.
04/24/23
Siento un vacío al pensar en mis sueños, lo que no logre, lo que casi fue mío.
No entiendo que tengo que hacer para que esta terrible época de mi vida ya
02/19/23
01/13/23
Storyteller
No noise
Only your voicemail opening the other line, cause you’re too busy to answer
your phone.
I danced with the devil, ever since that first night alone with you
nothings
I remember right before it all started, looking into those rising sun irises
And thinking,
I knew every crease and fall to your body before I knew your name.
Marlon.
You tried to change everything about me to fit into your picture perfect
Mrs. Merlo.
That always ended in tears and self destruction, sedating myself to survive
Even sent me to the hospital, just to be told by the doctors what everyone
else knew.
You’re a storyteller, A real deal manifestor
Weaving magic together with that billion dollar smile and a few words,
That later turns to weapons when they don’t fit your narrative.
This is the last time you get close enough to break my heart and fill my
You coward.
The least you could’ve done was let me know to not wait for you,
Another soul in your collection, that makes you feel young while it lasts till
12/19/22
This year I’m going to love myself. Become my best friend, write to her and talk to
her. Appease to her high standards of me, of us and baby her. I’m her mother and
father, I’m her sister, her best friend, her lover. I’m everything she ever wanted and
she’s everything I ever wanted. I'm gonna give her the space to be her fully,
unapologetically, divine self. I'm going to listen, sit down and listen, meditate in her
space, and heal her. H ow long has she gone silent, begging and praying that someone
would listen to her? I can’t be so cruel to her, she’s just a little girl. She doesn’t
deserve to be treated so poorly, while I’m chasing something to fulfill her. She deserves
better. I deserve better. Today I choose to always fill my cup first and foremost. Show
her a better world, better view, stop feeding her such ugliness of the world. Im going to
do everything for her, fuck what everyone is expecting, what they want. They’ve been a
deciding factor for everything I’ve done up to this point and it’s led me to ruins. So I’ll
tune out the world for a bit and tune into myself.
11/19/22
And I’m not sure how I’m supposed to control something I did not create
Others manifestation
H ope
Money
11/18/22
Thinking I could fix 40 years of heartache, trauma made me delirious to the scent
H e was irresistible.
And I gave in to temptation without a fight or protest
It was all an act and I was punchline to long-standing joke of a life he has.
Rotten heart
You still repeated the same tale I’ve been stuck in since I was 3.
You sucked the life out of me, a vampire who didn’t stop till he got his fill.
Whatever was left wasn’t good enough to help me stand on my own two feet.
Funny, you could never stand the sight of your own mistakes
Accountability is something you ran away from, abruptly and without any explanations
But I’m left to burry the memories one by one and burn up the evidence slowly
Fuck I don’t even remember how many steps it took to turn away far enough
Just know I’m not the same girl you once fucked over.
I wonder,
What of me made you look and still go ahead with your wicked plan
A puppet on your strings going through impossible lengths just to make you
Desire me.
Funny, once you left all the tower of lies fell over me
But instead I’m tied up to a world you could not afford even if you paid in gold
10/27/22
Up and beyond,
They say I need to come down from the clouds but my heart’s on the chopping
block
Ready to ride the wave, even if we don’t come out the same on the other side
Regret doesn’t exist in history, only battles waged and heroes come undone under
I'm the main character and it’s about time we changed the narrative.
10/27/22