Pinball, 1973
By Murakami Haruki
Translated by Alfred Birnbaum
1968-1973,
1 aed to lve listening to trie about faraway places, twas alsa pathologic
‘There was ime, a goed ten years ago now, whan T went around latching ono one
person fer anther, aking thers to alle sbout the places where they were bom and grew up
ies were short of people wiling to lend 2 sympathetic xr, seemed so anyone and everyone
‘opened up 0 me blgingly and emphatically telling all People dit even know somehow
{Bot word of ae and soughtane ot
ira af they wer losing rocks down a dry well: they’ spill kinds of diferent
stores my way, and wen they’ finished they go home prety much satisfied, Some woul
lak contented, some would work up quite an anger geting i cut Some would put things wel,
‘tas as often thers would come along with stores ule make head ao tao rm
begining to end There were boring ores, pathets tea jerks jambles of hal nonsense Even
soy hol out as lng as could and give a Serius Usten
Everyane had someting they were dying fell somebody or shoot fo the whale rll =
sho knows hy always fet arf boon handed a ardboard box crammed fal of moka
Ftake the monsys out ofthe box one ate, earefaly Brosh of the dust give them a pao
the bottom, and send them scurtyng off into the flds.Lneverhrew where they went fom
‘there: They probaly ended their days bling acoens somewhere. Bul ha afterall was thle
‘Thal was the thing about There was ile return on al the eo involved, Thinking,
‘beck ont ow, bet there had een Wo’ Most Earnest Listener contest ha year, Fd
Ihave won ance down. And Td prohably Rave won a box of ktchen matches
‘Among the people who talked to me were a guy fom Saturn and acter rom Venus,
ne eech The stor eally got tome. Ft the onc sboot Sars.
Out there ifs... awful ol” he groaned. “Just hiking about gives me the
wiles”
‘He belonged toa politica group that had staged a takeover of Bung 9 in the
‘univer. Thi molt was "Action Determine dealogy ~ Not the Revere!” No one would ell
thm what determined action. No matter, Bulding 9 had a water cooler, telephone, and boiler
{cles and pris they had a nice ite mu lounge complet with Ale A3 speakers and
callcton of tw thousand records, Iwas paradise (compared to, sy, Balding, hich smell
ikea racetrack restoom) very morning they'd shave themselves neat and clean witha the ot
water they vanted inthe ateroon they d make as mary longditance al ak hey fl ike and
‘when the nn went coven they all et togeter an ste to Foor By the end of stam
‘very member had become a Classical musi fat,‘Then one besutifly clear November afternoon, rt police forced thei way into
Building 9 while Vivld'sLEsty Armonico was blaring way ful lat. don nw how tr all
‘hiss bat yeaa ce the wore heatoarnng eres 061965,
‘When I squck past thei “baricade”ofstackedup benches, Haydn's Plano Sonata in G
Minor was playing sof. The atmosphere was at homey and inviling a path long blu
‘ooming with senquns bushes aling toward a glen s house The guy fom Satan
‘flere me the best chan the plac, ae poured kewarn bee ino beaker ited rom the
science building
“On op ofthat the gravity is tremendous. he went on about Saturn, “There been
‘humps who broke their instep sping outa wad of gum A alll”
“ll 1 ges," Lpromple aera couple of seconds. Hy this time had command of
early three hunted or so ferent smal alk phrases to tvow in during awhoard pauses
‘The sun's sll oo just one of hose things Take meas soon a gt out of
school Fm going back to Satara, And Tllsarta gegen nation. Arsev-eevauton?”
many case sfc ittosayIenjyed hearing about faraveay places. Ihad stocked up 2
whole store ofthese places ikea Bear geting rea for hibernation. close my eyes and
Strcls would materialize, rows of houses ake shape. Leould hear people's wou, el the pee,
steady thythm of theives, the people wo distant, whom proba never knoe
[Naoko often spoke to me about these things. And T remember her every werd
really don't knowhow o putt Naoko forced smiling inthe snl university
Jounge, elbow on the table and cheek propped upon her palm. Lwaited patient for er to
continue. At alway, she took her ine, searching fr just he right words
‘West rod plastic tabletop between son which paper cup spilled over with cigarette
‘butts, Aigh window let ina shaft of sunlight straight out of Rubens paoting, pig the
‘able down the middle nto ight and dark My eg hand rested on thetabl ih heel in
shadow.
The sping of 96, you se, we were nour eal twenties. And what wit al the
refunen sporting brandencw shoes carping bende course descriptions heads pecked with
‘brand-new brane there was haaly room to alkin the lounge On bah ides fy, reshmen
were perpetually bumping nto ane acter, exchanging nso grestngs.
“tell you the town is ely nothing o speak of” she reamed. "Ther a stesight
stretch of ack ana station A ptf ile station tat the tainmen could eel mise on 8357
day”
1 nodded, Then fo fl they seconds the to of ws gazed abseil atthe cigar
moke carling up through he beam of ight
“A dog!t be walking from one endothe platform to the other. You know the Kind of
stationnods,
“Right out in ron of he station theresa bus sop and a cca drives ears can ick
upand drop off passengers. And some shops. real sleepy ite shops Straght ahead, you run
Intoa park A park witha sid and thee swings”
“And a sandbox”
“ Asaudbox?™ She thought for a moment, then nade in confirmation. “It's got one,
‘Once more wef silent carefully put out the stub of my cigarette in the paper cup.
~Aseribly boring town cant imagine what possible purpose there could have been for
making sucha dul place”
“Gad work im wondrous ways I quipped
[Naoko shook er head and sid to herself. It was a sort of taight-A coed aie, uti
lingered in ny cd an edly loog tive Long aftr she'd goon her eral ecxined, Eke the gin
‘lthe Cheshire Cat in Ace in Wonderland And it scarred tome how tach wanted to sce
that dog pacing the fngth of the station platform
our yar Intern May of 197, vite the tation alone. fast to see that dog shaved
forthe cecaion, pon ai forthe it ime in sx months and Brought out my Cordovan
shoes.
Stepping don from the sory trea loa ain hit seem ent rt py
rinste the very fre thing t it me wa he familia elf open grassy spaces The sel of
Penis way back when, Nesalgicthings, ll own my way onthe May breeze. caked my
‘hed an strained to seman could auke out he iter of sparrows,
“Leting ot fog yawn, Tat down on tation bench and dejected smo
cigarette: Tat invigorating felng left the apartment with in the morning had utesy
‘Vanished. Nothing but morea the same, over and uver O50 scemed. Am ends det
FForing worcal rary tam
‘Therehad been ine when friends and [used to fll asleep sprawled out any which
way on the lor tether At dawn, someone would svarably step on my head Then woud
be Ospe sory” flowed by that same someone takings lak More the ame over and over
again
‘oosened my te and cigarette danghing from the comer of my mouth sraped the
‘sles of the not quite broken shoes onthe platform To lessen the paint my fet Net thatthe
pain was all hat ad, but t gave me the uneasy feling that my body was somehow broken into
Bis and pecs.Nosignofany dog.
An uneasy feling
‘This uneasiness comes over me fom me wo tng and fe as fe somnchow been
pieced tage frm two diferent passes, Whatever iti at ines like hee {om dwn a
‘whiskey andi the ace An when I getup in he morning things are cwen worse, Mor ofthe
‘Same one mare time around
(One time when | woke up, I found mysel flanked by twin gis. Now things lik this had
Jnappened to me many tines before but Thad toadmita twin to ach side wasa fst The both of
them sleping away, noses nestled snugly so my shoulders It was aright cear Sunday
morning
nally they both woke up ~almst simutaneously ~ and proceeded to worm into the
shits and jeans they'd tossed under the be. Without so muchas word, hey went nt the
Lichen, made toast nd coffe pot batter fom the dear aid al out onthe table They
knew what they were doing, Outside the window, bird, which Icouldt deny either,
peched onthe chalk fence ofthe gol course and cattred away rap fie.
"Your names?” asked ther, had nasty hangover
‘They're not much as names” said the one seated onthe ight
“Realy nothing special s names "sid the one onthe eft. “You know how iis"
Yeah, Lhnow," aid
So wesat facing each other across the able, munching toast and deinking coffe. The
cefae was pod.
“Does it other you, us not having names?” one of them asked
“Him. what you think™
‘The two of them gave i some thought
“Wel if you simply mast have names for us, choose something that sem of
proposed the ther
“Calls whatever ou
‘The ils always took uns speaking twas ean FMsterc check and made my head
“Por instance? Lashed.
“Lettan Right” sid one
“Vertical and Horizontal sid the other,
“Upand Down”
Front and Back”“Fast and West”
“Entrance and Fi" managed to get in nota be outdone: The woof them ook at
‘ach other and lnughed contented
‘Where her's an entrance, there's got to bea exit Most things work that way’ Public
mailboxes vacuum ciesners, 00 plastic condiment squeeze tien OF cours, thee ar ings
that dont Fo example, mousetaps
once sct mousetrap under my apartment sink used peppermint gum for bai. Mer
‘ouring the entire apartment that was the only thing approaching fod I cou fing, Found
Inthe pocket of ay winter oa alongwith a movie kt stub
By the third mering tiny moute had flied with ae, Sill ery young the mouse Was
the color af these cashmere sweaters you se piled up in Landon duty-free shops Tas maybe
fifcen or siatcen in human years. tender age. A biter pec of gum ay under its paws.
‘Tha no ides what to do withthe thing now that caught Hind esti pinned
“under the spring wie, the mouse died on the fourth morning Seeing yng thee taught mea
lesson, Everything needs an entance and exit That's about these of it
‘Skirting the ily the racks rans aight they seemed ruled Far ahead you could see
‘woods he ite wads of dal green paper. Thetis hinted nthe sun, merging into the geen
stance, No matter how far you wert the same scenery would go forver A depressing
thought ifthe ever was onc Give mca subway any dey.
‘inished my cgarets, then stretched bit ooking up a the sky. It had boen along tine
‘since Yd eally ook a the sy. Or ray, tad Bean long ane since wid to ake Rood.
look at anything
Nota loud inthe sky. Morcover, the whole of it was veiled in that languid opagueness
unique tospring From above, the blue was making enabler! to penezatethal tangible
‘eis sunlight slnty sted down ike fine dst fom the atmosphere, andl unnoticed by
Sryone seemed to form layer over the ground,
Light sat eying inthe ar bree, The i lowed as saly ut a loc of id ting,
among the res, grouping o take ight. tide down the gente green slope alongside the
treks crossed over, and slippe trough the woods, hardly sieringa singe lea. The call of |
cuckoo rang out straight across the sally luminous scene, the echo disappearing over the ide
‘Asucession of ils rose and fl ke sleepy gia cats cus inthe pooled sualigh of tie,‘The pain in my fot grew still worse.
Sole me ell you something about his well
Naoko had moved to the aoa when she was lve 196. The your Ricky Nelson sng
"Hello Mary Lou” It was a peaceful green valley at he ime, at single thing to daim your
stention, Ahandfl of frmhouses witha few belds a steam fll of crayfish oce-trck lcs]
‘allroad, barely a yawn of rain sation that wast Mot farmhouses had persimmon eee
planted inte yard and weather enter old bars standing oone sie or ater tetering an
ead to fll part. An tore were those cheap tn sighs adversing tse paper or soap ralled
‘cn bar walls that faced the tracs. The pace relly was ke that NoL even a dog anywhere,
Naoko had sid
‘Tae house she moved into was. two-story Western-style villa bul sometne around the
‘Korean Wor Noth very spacious, nn you, bute sturdy ost bers and qual lumber
chosen for each part gave the house «comfortably solid look, The ese, pained in these
‘hades of green had faded handsomely nthe sun and wind and ain to bien perc th
‘the surounding countryside. There was a huge yard, and nit several tans of tees and smal
pond. In among the tres was agua tle octagonal arbor hat had been used as a studios
bay windows ung wit ace curtains faded to nondescript color. Down bythe pnd, dalle
‘were in rots bloom, and every morning bird came to the
‘The ast own ofthe house, who was alo its designe, had beun an eldesy ol puter,
but his larg ave out on hi ad he died he winter belore Naoko moved in That wasn 196,
the year Hobby Vee sang Red Ruler Pali” ft had ben an ae rainy winter that year Snow
Iara evr fel in these parts: instead you go afcezing-old ain. The rain soaked ito the
round, stinging the vpsol with damp cll But deeper dow, t made fora able af weet
founda.
Five minutes’ walk along the tras from he sation veda well digger. Therein the
dank boton and bythe steamy summer brought hordes of mosis and frog narod the
Inouye. the well digger was diel ll natured man of ity or ao, but when came to ig
‘wells he waa bon ie genius When hie to dia well he'd fst spend a couple a days jot
‘walking around teste muttering te Rinsef ashe srfed handfuls of dite soop up hete
Gd thet. Then when he'd ound Some spot that aged with hy he'd alin some co-workers,
ed they'd dig staght dowa,
‘That's why people heteabous could drink wet well water to thet hea’ content The
‘wate was col an 0 erst lear you'd alanost wea Uhre wasn'ta glass your hard. Some
folks laid the water came rom the meling ows of Mt Fa but thal was possible No
‘way ico come that‘Te autumn of Nacko's seventeenth year, the wellaigge was kled by a train. A