Abhijit N. Pawase | Need for Courage | M.Sc.

Computer Science Part-I

Need For Courage

Yeah I know, dont make that face. Courage is the one aspect of my life that I am searching for. When this mail came to me, the first thing that came to my mind was what host of technical related problems I can solve or may be invent a few in the way. I changed my mind, because you wanted to commemorate a great guy. So, why not something much more than that. Why not at one more level high. Then I decided to do the solution on corruption or to propose anticorruption draft myself. Surprisingly it did not, lets say, was in tune with my mind or heart, so as to speak. Then one thing has always clawed at my guts for last three years. And that is nothing but my quest for courage. Dont mistake me for a coward. You may think if courage doesnt exist then a person is coward. No Sir. Actually I am an old lion full of pride. I dilly-dally around. Occasionally challenge myself. Lazy at most. But once you prick my pride then comes the pen-ultimate prowess of courage from me. But it means to induce courage someone has to prick my pride. Wish it was that simple, but sadly no. No, I am not overconfident either. I have learnt a very bitter lesson in it. Thank you very much. I for one still know thats the courage I need.
I can hand out a million vaccinations Or let'em all die in exasperation Have'em all healed of their lacerations Have'em all killed by assassination I can make anybody go to prison Just because I don't like'em and I can do anything with no permission I have it all under my command I can guide a missile by satellite By satellite By satellite and I can hit a target through a telescope Through a telescope Through a telescope and I can end the planet in a holocaust In a holocaust In a holocaust In a holocaust

Abhijit N. Pawase | Need for Courage | M.Sc. Computer Science Part-I

In a holocaust In a holocaust I can ride my bike with no handlebars No handle bars No handlebars I can ride my bike with no handlebars No handlebars No handlebars -

Flobots.

The above song is from Flobots called Handlebars. I listen to this song every day. I have like these 101 ideas to solve Poseidon of problems. And another 100 of ideas on how to earn money. Because money is good, Right? But even with so much talent, skill, intelligence, diligence. There is one thing inside me, many call it emotion, and some say it comes naturally. But I call it the demon from abyss, the last Boss of the last level of the game, and behind it my utopia FEAR. The enemy is fear. Dont smile, dont even think about it. Many unknown great minds have fallen on the sword of Fear. Even when I am writing this, its gnawing at my chest. Its like a heavy burden at my heart, that I have to carry all the time. My breathe stops, I cant think, it rushes up and down. It crushes me from inside. It shatters me, it completely counter-acts me. And why fear. Well why not.
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Energy is neither be created nor can it be destroyed Energy through the universe is constant. Energy coverts from one form to another.

Fear and Courage. Negative and Positive. Yin and Yang. Fear is nothing but fear itself- Franklin Roosevelt They pretty much balance themselves. So my question is. How can I(we) destroy/convert something that cannot cease to exit.

Abhijit N. Pawase | Need for Courage | M.Sc. Computer Science Part-I

You may, at some point think this is useless ranting between fear and courage. But, I consider it my quest. The moment I find courage that would trigger my conscious to communicate with a greater body, a greater pool of energy. Again a very infamous proverbGreat minds think alike They think alike because they have achieved enlighten in some way or they have conquered their fear to be connected to this greater power. When I achieve and complete my quest to courage. There may not exist any power that could challenge me. There may be no problem to solve. Nothing could stop me from embracing my destiny. So the final showdown is between me and my Fears. And that is my advice to anyone reading this. We all have fears, small or big doesnt matter. Thing is fear is fear, neither small nor big. Understand them if you can, as early as possible, or later you may regret. I, for one, is still trying to understand the core of my fears, so I may build up necessarily the courage block by block. In simpler words, the moment a person overcomes their fear, they in definition itself, are greater if not great!!! (And this simple line is my make and understanding. Beauty of it is, you agree to it whether you like it or not.) P.S- Advice (I use this one quite frequently), be a bit cocky, it helps bring the fear a bit down. But remember only bit cocky, thats the main part, because it may seem rude to other people. Other people please forget and forgive if someone is rude, they may be trying to fight their own fear. Thank You.