Once i admit it...what's to say i'll relive it...

without pain backstreet lover on the side of the road i got a bomb in my tmeple that is gonna explode i got a .16 gauge buried under my clothes...i play. once upon a time i could control myself once upon a time i could lose myself oh try and mimic..what's insane i am in it...where do i stand? indian summer i hate the heat i got a backstreet lover on the passenger seat i got my hand in my pocket so determined discreet...i pray. once once once once once once Even Flow Freezin', rests his head on a pillow made of Oh, Feelin' maybe he'll see a little betters Oh, head down, faces that he sees don't look Oh, girlfriend he can't have when he's happy Even flow thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know so he chases them away someday yet he'll begin his life again Life againn Kneelin', looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read Prayin', now to something that has never showed him anything Oh, feelin', understands the weather or that winters on its way, yeah Oh, ceilins people fall between all the legal halls of shame Even flow thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know so he chases them away someday yet he'll begin his life again Whispering hands, carry him away him away, him away yeah! woo oh yeah yeah Alive upon upon upon upon a a a a time time time time i i i i could could could could control myself lose myself love myself love myself

concrete, again any days it ain't that familiar looks insane, oh yeah

son, she said have i got a little story for you what you thought was your daddy was nothin' but a.... while you were sittin' home alone at age thirteen your real daddy was dyin' sorry you didn't see him but i'm glad we talked... I'm still alive oh she walks slowly across a young man's room she said i'm ready...for you i can't remember anything to this very day 'cept blood, blood from you know where now i can't see, i just stare. i'm still alive is something wrong she said of course there is you're still alive she said do i deserve to be is that the question and if so,...if so... who answers? who answers? i'm still alive Why Go she scratches a letter into a wall made of stone maybe someday another child won't feel as alone as she does it's been two years and counting since they put her in this place she's been diagnosed by some stupid fuck and mommy agrees why go home? why go home? why go home... she but she she she seems to be stronger what they want her to be is weak could just pretend could play the game could be another clone

why go home? what you taught me don't come visit put me here mommy dear Black Hey...oooh... Sheets of empty canvas Untouched sheets of clay Were laid spread out before me As her body once did All five horizons Revolved around her soul As the earth to the sun Now the air I tasted and breathed Has taken a turn Ooh, and all I taught her was, everything Ooh, I know she gave me all, that she wore And now my bitter hands Chafe beneath the clouds Of what was everything Oh, the pictures have All been washed in black Tattooed everything I take a walk outside I'm surrounded by Some kids at play I can feel their laughter So why do I sear Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin Round my head I'm spinning Oh, I'm spinning How quick the sun can, drop away... And now my bitter hands Cradle broken glass Of what was everything All the pictures had All been washed in black Tattooed everything All the love gone bad Turned my world to black Tattooed all I see All that I am All that I will be I know someday you'll have a beautiful life I know you'll be a star In somebody else's sky But why can't it be mine Jeremy at home drawing pictures

of mountain tops with him on top lemin yellow sun arms raised in a V dead lay in pools of maroon below daddy didn't give attention to the fact that mommy didn't care king jeremy the wicked ruled his world jeremy spoke in class today jeremy spoke in class today clearly i remember pickin' on the boy seemed a harmless little fuck but we unleashed a lion gnashed his teeth and bit the recessed lady's breast how could i forget he hit me with a surprise left my jaw left hurtin dropped wide open just like the day like the day i heard daddy didn't give affection and the boy was something mommy wouldn't wear king jeremy the wicked ruled his world jeremy spoke in class today jeremy spoke in class today try to forget this... try to erase this... from the blackboard. Oceans hold on to the thread the currents will shift guide me towards you know something's left and we're all allowed to dream of the next time we touch you don't have to stray two oceans away waves roll in my thoughts hold tight the ring... the sea will rise... please stand by the shore... i will be... i will be... there once more Porch

what the fuck is this world running to? you didn't leave a message at least i could have heard your voice one last time. daily minefield this could be my time how 'bout you? would you hit me? would you hit me? all the bills go by and initiatives are taken up by the middle there ain't gonna be any middle any more and the cross i'm bearing home ain't indicative of my place left the porch left the porch hear my name take a good look this could be the day hold my hand walk beside me i just need to say... hear my name take a good look this could be the day hold my hand lie beside me i just need to say what can i take? i just want to be i know that i would not ever touch you hold you feel you ever hold never again Garden the direction of the eye so misleading the defection of the soul nauseously quick i don't question our existence i just question our modern needs i will walk...with my hands bound i will walk...with my face blood i will walk...with my shadow flag into your garden

garden of stone after all is done we're still alone i won't be taken yet i'll go... i will walk...with my hands bound i will walk...with my face blood i will walk...with my shadow flag into your garden garden of stone i don't show... i don't share... i don't need what you have to give... Deep on the edge windowsill ponders his maker ponders his will to the street below he just ain't nothin' but he's got a great view... on the edge know-nothin' town feelin' quite superior the aged come to the sky above he just ain't nothin' but he's got a great view... on the edge of a christmas clean love young virgin from heaven visiting... to the man above her she just ain't nothin'... she doesn't like the view doesn't like the view doesn't like the view... but he sinks himself deep. can't touch the bottom in too deep can't touch the bottom can't touch the bottom in too deep can't touch the bottom can't touch the bottom in too deep can't touch the bottom can't touch the bottom deep...

Release i see the world feel the truth which way to go windowsill i see the words on a rocking horse of time i see the birds in the rain oh dear dad can you see me now i am myself like you somehow i'll ride the wave where it takes me i'll hold the pain release me oh dear dad can you see me now i am myself like you somehow i'll wait up in the dark for you to speak to me i'll open up release me release me release me release me