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Phases of Fear
It has just reached sunset in the city of Brighton. I found myself standing on the
pebbly beach. With five layers of clothing, I should be able to handle the winter wind, but it
keeps piercing through my clothes like an arrow through a haystack. But Ive gotten used to
it, the numbness makes it bearable. Wintertime Brighton beach is an underrated place. People
should come here more often, or not. After all, the exact reason I am standing here at this
I take a deep breath and step forward. I try my best not to trip over the rock-strewn
surface. The ocean waves keep crashing in closer and closer to my now tired feet. I stand still
for a moment, thinking about all the good things in life. I walk over towards the water. In no
more than three seconds, my body cannot help but pull back my feet automatically.
Thats enough for today, I think to myself. This is the 16th day I have tried to step
into the water. I know my progress is slow, but hey, I got two feet closer than yesterday!
Just a thought of the open ocean scares me to the point of running away.
It is starting to grow darker and colder. The wind has yet to stop drifting me in against
At least, theres no snowstorm, I think to myself to cope with this painful British
weather.
My head producer Jayden just called me to come in at 19:00. I can make it. The
recording studio is just two blocks away. The fact that the wind blows so violently makes me
want to just steal Aladdins gravity-defying magic carpet and cruise along the streets. That
would be a nice futuristic way of commute. Anyways, where are we now? I realize I got
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distracted and lost again. I should have taken a left earlier. I finally arrive the studio with just
30 seconds to spare.
Nothing feels like home except inside these four foam-padded walls. In here, I am
safe. Theres nothing to worry about. I plan to work here for the next ten years. It will be cool
to have so much work experience and to have met so many people during my work life. One
of the reasons why I chose this job is that mainly so I could stay away from water, but also
meet new artists who come in every day. I find it easy to just make friends with new people
rather sticking with the old ones. Maybe that makes me sound selfish, I wouldnt deny it.
However, some of them are just the same age as me, just graduated college, pursuing their
dreams.
Heres a secret. I have the ears of a bat when it comes to music. For every artist that
has come in to record at this studio, I can tell if they are going to make it to the top charts or
not. My hearing has never betrayed me. Maybe god had given me this talent to compensate
with my aqua phobia. Either ways, I hoped I chose the right job.
Bry! Good to see you here again, you talented fella! yells Alison as she tumbles
toward me, as tipsy as I suppose. This woman loves her voice when shes drunk. Alisons
songs has been hitting the UK top charts lately. Knowing that the closer she gets to number
one, she would only get more drunk afterwards, I am seriously concerned for her well-being.
Careful, Alison! Get your nasty whisky away from me! I say as I brush her off as
quickly as I can, failing to realize how bad it would look if she werent drunk. Cautiously, I
resume to my synth table, trying to suppress my anxiety. I start to pretend to set up my things
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like usual, just to kill time until Jayden calls on me. Once everyone in the studio is ready, we
start recording. All these times, Alison has always stepped up her voice game every time we
record. Thats what throws her on the top charts. I never second guessed it.
The last note has yet to last on a night like this. It took her many tries to get a vibrato
on that single jaw-dropping yet warming note. She insists I dont auto tune it. She has always
been like this: stubbornly pushing her limits. Once she grabs the mic, its hard to let go.
From the corner of my eye, a waving of Jaydens hands called me back to reality. I
realize I zoned out again during one of her attempts and almost missed the record button.
Luckily, she continues to try again, so that mistake wasnt mine after all.
A long night has gone by and I have gone full circle on my energy level. Alison is
finally satisfied with what she poured her heart and souland liquor into creating. We
recorded a whopping total of one track which is supposed to be her lead single of her new
album.
Cant wait to hear that on the radio! I say in the most exciting voice I can, but no
one seems to notice my excitement. After all, I was drained of any energy my body has left to
Bry Bry! Looking as tired as always! Why dont you talk to your girlfriend at least
before you hit the bed? excitedly shouts Madelaine, my lovely black-haired girl.
I am too tired to respond so I just present my exhausted face to her. Its fine. Shes
used to it by now. She is just getting ready to go to work at the movie set when I arrive. Its
always been like this on weekdays. We only actually see each other on evenings: when she
comes home from work and I just wake up. People say its a weird relationship but I find that
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meeting her only a short amount of time makes it worthwhile. Hell, the fact that we even met
is fundamentally weird. Im awkward. Shes awkward. Similars attract. I like to think that in
the entertainment industry, there has to be people like us--the awkward ones behind the
the soft IKEA bed. I cant be bothered to take a showernot that I ever do anyways. As I am
lying down, I look out the bedroom window and see the buildings almost blocking me from
viewing the vast sea. A faint sound of never-ending waves reassuringly haunts me until it
lulls me to sleep.
Ring!! my phone screeches aggressively as I reach my arms to shut it. I hit receive
and turn on the speakerphone mode in order to maintain my sleeping position. Genius.
Alison says she wants to meet you today, Jayden says softly.
What? Does she want to retake that last note now that shes sober?
No. Quite sure its not that. She wants to meet you personally. Its a pretty serious
meeting this time. Dont make a fool of yourself. Rooftop Waterstones Tower, 9 A.M.
Sure. So surprised of what she has to offer, I say disregarding what Jayden just said.
I quickly get up and walk out the bedroom door. The cold morning starts to warm up
choose to take an UBER this time because I am simply too tired. I resist an urge to pull out
my phone as I force myself to look out the window and appreciate how beautiful Brighton is.
The giant Ferris wheel towers above the pier. The colorfulness of the amusement park rides
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on Brighton pier is suddenly covered with an orange glow from the sun; past that, there lies
the idle winter sea. Ive always questioned why I have this condition: this crippling fear of
water. It haunts me every time I touch it or even see it. Sometimes, I wonder about how much
of my precious time have been lost over worrying. Before I have a chance to bring my mind
I quickly grab my bag and go up the elevator to see Alison. On the rooftop caf, she is
sat there alone at a table for two. There is no one else around. My paranoia meter is starting
to rise, but I am able to quickly suppress it. Its weird to see her this way. I have never seen
her without her manager keeping her companied. Either ways, I walk up to her and greet her
like usual. Her face that once was red turns into a cold statue-like figure.
I messed up, says Alison. I need you to listen to me. I pause and try to figure out
Like Ive never listened to you. I listened to you all the time last night, I giggly say
This is not funny, Bry, I really need you to think about this, Alison continues.
To be honest, I probably have at some point. But for now, I have no reason to, I
reply decisively.
Ive been threatened, Alison says while she lays her polished burgundy nails on her
forehead. I need you to get away from here as soon as possible, or else, or else,
No, Alison. Calm down, what is it? Im sure we can figure it out, I say worryingly.
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Theres a medium-sized wooden crate on the 24th floor. They need you to deliver it
to Newcastle port by 8 P.M. or else my whole career will be over. There will be helpers along
the way, but you have to carry it to the port yourself, she trembles. Ive known you for a
I feel an aura from her body. Its something familiar. I can sense that her body is filled
with fearsomething Ive never felt in her. She doesnt want this feeling to last much longer
and I can clearly tell that. So, as quickly as I can, I stand up and agree to her uncanny order,
even though I know it will put my life at risk. Then, I briskly walk away from the caf.
Why me? Out of everyone in the crew, I wonder as I walk into the elevator again.
I follow every instruction to her every single word. I disguise the dusty wooden crate
to make it look less like a drug container and more like a normal cardboard package. I take
the crate away to the nearest port. There are some masked up men in black suits standing to
help me handle it into the secret deck at the back of a nearby cargo ship. The men take care of
the crate as I take time to exhale for a second just to realize that I actually have to get on the
ship. At this moment, I could have panicked. I could have freaked out. But the last thing I
want to be here is noticeable, so I have no choice but to shut up and get on the ship.
I sit down beside the crate as I try to squish myself in between it and a large container,
with the crate sitting just below my eye level. Once the ship boarded at 13:20, it starts to hit
me. Shivers run down my spine and my body becomes uncontrollable. Now, the singular
giant mass that surrounds me is water. I can do nothing but close my eyes as I imagine my
soul not existing. Thats the most helpful thing I can do now.
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The ship starts to wobble as my eyes remain shut. I recognize that this is it. This is my
limit. I cannot go further than this. I can no longer deal with the excruciating feeling of fear
For a brief second, I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought I had everything
under control. I thought I was finally changing. I thought I was not the resentful guy everyone
wants to ignore. For once, my mind was at peace, but I cant possibly let it happen any
longer. It needs to stop. Too much peace puts my life in danger. And so, it gets worse. The
wooden crate disintegrated into pieces and its contents exploded out through the shattered
wood chips. Through my misty brown eyes, I can merely see something flickering with the
sunlight: photos of my childhood self piled up messily. Suddenly, my mind is woken up. Its
like my brain revealed a part of itself that exists but has never been shown before. After all
this time, I know why. I know why I have this condition. I know why Im suffering. Its the
accident from my childhood: the shipwreck that almost made me lost my family. I went into a
coma long enough for me to forget everything that had happened in that accident. I can
The ship has finally arrived at Newcastle Port and all there is left in the crate is some
nails and soggy old photos. I walk out even more drained of energy. As I am walking, I hear
recognize where the sound is coming from. Its Madelaines signature black high heels.
MadsI Its you isnt it, I barely verbalize the tangled thoughts in my mind.
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You answer my question first! Tell me this is all just set up!
Okay. Fine. Its all set up. The meeting, the ship, everything, she confesses but
You did all of this just to reveal this secret?! You even got Alison and Jayden and
Remember what you used to say about Alison? How she was pushing her limits and
stuff? Shes you now. Youve broken your limit. Be proud of that, says Madelaine.
Youre not only good at setting scenes in movies, but also in real life. No doubt
Of course I do. If I dont keep it realistic, how would you possibly agree to this in the
first place? But more importantly, now you know why you have this condition, Bry. Ive been
wanting to tell you all this time but I never had a chance to. So I figured it would be better I
create one myself, she says as her smile gazes upon my face.
Theres nothing more fulfilling than knowing why things happen, I say as I feel a