This is an open letter to girl who almost gave up.

Who gave you strength? Who made you smile? What made you decide to
keep on life? Youre almost on the verge of falling but you didnt let
yourself getting crushed by the negative soul surrounding you.

Pillows getting wet each and every night, silent sobs that gave
you heartache thinking no one is around you, negative thoughts getting
in your mind, others may say youre crazy, but youre not. Youre sad,
lonely, and confused. But you didnt give up.

Matthew 11:28 kept you intact. God gave you strength every time
you calls his name whenever youre sad and scared. He made you feel
special. He saved you from falling. Hes the reason why youre still
breathing. He gave his life especially for you. And now that youre
okay, dont forget about him. STOP BACKSLIDING. Sing and worship for
him. Stop thinking about negative thoughts because he already answered
your prayer, he helped you in the times of your struggle. All you have
to do is keep on praying, and worshipping him.

Always remember Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I

think toward you, said the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil,
to give you and expected end. He has plans for you, plans that will
never harm you. Keep on believing. Make your hardships an inspiration
to everyone and let it be the reason why youre following the great
steps in life.

This is for you, the girl who almost gave up. Your story is about
to start. The life your living is given by God. His plans are already
written, just wait and have patience. He loves you and hes waiting
for you to love him back fully.

To my parents who gave up their happiness for me.

This is for my DAD who never stopped working to make a living.

Who gave his all of his time just to provide food and shelter for his
family, to the man who trained me to be a better person, I never saw
you cry. You showed us youre strong even when were on the lowest
part of our life. You kept on searching for solutions and you never
showed that you cant do it.

Youre the first man I ever loved. You made me and my mom feel
how special we were and that wont change. I thank God for having you
as my father and I will never regret having you. I love you dad.

This is for my MOM the bravest of all. The wonder woman of my

life, to my mom who made me felt I am her world, and her life. To my
best friend, my sister and my life, and to the one who spoils me. No
matter what will happen I will always be here for you. I will always
be by your side. You are my everything, even though we fight at times
I will never get tired of it.

Youre my best friend. Youre my confidante. All those long night

conversations cant be replaced by anyone. You game meaning in my
life. I thank God for all of your advices and jokes that made me who I
am today. I will never replace you for anyone. I love you mom.

Words are not enough to express how thankful I am having you both as
my parents. Even in the hardest part of our life, I will forever love
you mom and dad. Youre the best parents ever Ill ever have. And even
in my next life, I will still be asking God for you to be my parents.
And I pray youll live a hundred years just to be with me. Hihihi <3

This is to the person whos planning to love me until the last
part of our breaths.

I am one of the craziest girl youll ever met. I laugh a lot. Eat a
lot and I sing almost everyday. I always get insecure whenever I see
someone who has a sexy body and it makes me say Ill start dieting
now. And if that makes you get annoyed, stop making me feel special
and leaving me in the end.

I love books, singing, and I love getting my nails prettier but that
depends on my mood. I always ask if do I look fat in every clothes I
wear. Small things can make me happy, as long as you make me feel I am
important I am satisfied.
There are several ways to catch my heart. First is if you respect me,
my decisions and my family. Second is when youre being honest with
me. Because what I hate the most is liars. Id also love if you would
take me on an adeventure. Simple efforts will also do, like creating
artworks or letters for me. Long conversations with coffee is also
what I loved to do.

Okay I have to cut this topic here because I sound like one of the
sassy and mean girls. Hahaha but that would be all. Few more sentences
and I am off to the next page. I am really exhausted my thoughts are
already drained. I need another day to finish this or maybe a week. I
dont know what to say. Can I sing here? Can I type song lyrics here
so I can sing on my minds because I might get so loud.

See the last paragraph? Thats me and thats who I am. You got to
accept who I am before deciding to be with me for the rest of our
lives. Because I believe that true love is when you fully accept the
person no matter who and what she is.

This is for the fallen warriors who fought bravely to save the
city of Marawi.

Papa, papa wake up. Says the child of a hero who offered his
life for the country, seeing his father inside his coffin thinking
hes just asleep at the very young age is really one of the most
heartbreaking scene, a mother would see. The country may gain another
hero but another child lost a father because of a battle made by
greedy minds of the Maute group.

Shouts and cries of children and their mothers crying for help.
People trying to save themselves lifting up each other to evacuate and
rescue themselves from a battle that cant survive without the help of
rifles, ak-47,sniper, and such guns that could end someones life.

Reporters giving their best to have their coverage of the war

and informing the families left behind are also heroes, using their
passion to provide news.
 This is how brave the military conquered the battle, living their
family behind, not knowing if they could celebrate another Christmas
with their families alive.

Benefits and money that are given to the families of the deceased
are not enough to cover the emotional pain caused by this ridiculous
war.

Being a soldier is like offering yourself to serve the country

you love. Once you decided and entered the training camp, half of your
life is already buried in you grave. In tagalog nasa hukay na ang is
among paa.

This is a letter stating my funeral plans.

Ive always loved Sunflowers. Even I havent received one yet.

But I hope Ill get one while I am still alive. So on the day Ill die
I want to have 3 of them holding it. I would like my casket to be
colored blue. Because blue is my favorite color. I want to wear an off
shoulder dress that is colored red. And I want my make up to be full
make up so that even on my last day on earth Id look presentable.

I want a eulogy from my friends. Stating all my happiest moments

with them, I want balloons to fly in the sky colored pastel pink, or
just pink. I want a lot of flowers around me. And on the last day, the
day of my burial when theyre slowly placing my casket on my grave I
would like sunflowers to be thrown. I would like to see everyone
wearing formal attire. Because if I would be there I would be laughing
but still appreciating the effort they made.

I am not doing this for the sake of attention, but this is what I
want because youll never know what will happen.

I know this may be a weird thing to plan and it may sound

annoying but, would you like to die not the way you want even in your
last time on earth? Would you like to die without remembering by the
people after a few years?
 If someone would see this, this letter will remain hidden and
treasured. For this is my letter stating on what I want to happen.

Oh and for the last time thanks for wasting your time reading
this.

Love lots. The girl no one has ever noticed.

To the guy who made me feel safe.

This letter goes to the guy who never fails to make me smile, who
made me feel beautiful and who made me feel SAFE.

Ive been always the type of girl who seldom trusts someone. I
never opened up myself to someone so easily, unlike what I did with
you. You made me feel comfortable and safe with you. How did you even
do that?

I didnt regret the day continuing the conversation we had. I was

so ecstatic that time, and then you approached me. Your
Congratulations started everything what we have right now. And until
that day we never stopped talking.

We discovered we have a lot of things in common, favorite food,

color, our likes and dislikes and even our experiences in life.

We even already know each others names before. We pass each

other through the corridors and catch our eyes looking at each other.
But we didnt have any single conversation until the day you
congratulate me. And I thank God for it.

We act like best friends, and siblings but we still have a lot
more connection than those. You made me feel safe and comfortable.
You made me happy, and I am wishing that what we have right now would
last until the end of time. We may not know what will happen in the
future but I am praying that we will be stronger no matter how many
obstacles will pass.

Lets reach our goals and be successful together. Lets share our
happiness and sadness together.

 To the widowed woman whos afraid to fall in love again.

Tears falling from your eyes; silent sobs each and every night.
All pity goes on you; silent whispers coming from the mouths of the
tale bearers. Thinking you inherited all his belongings and made
yourself living in the bed of roses by a deceased old man. But they
didnt know the truth. Everyones judging you but all you did was to
love.

You were afraid at first, meeting someone whos old but a

gentleman good looking man inside a bar. You were young, trying to
solve things in your own way. But you were decent, serving foods to
fill their stomachs but not your body to fill their lust. You caught
him staring at you. Until he goes to the counter an started having a
conversation with you.

Fear rolling down to your spine. You were unsure and frightened.
But until he cracked a classic old joke and made you smile. He asked
for a drink, gives you one but you refused to take it. The old man
genuinely smiled. And the night ended.

The next night he came back carrying a bouquet of flowers and a

handful of chocolate; an old way to catch a womans heart. You were
confused and shocked at the same time when he placed everything on the
counter in front of you. Everyone stopped, gossips came around the
corner and you were timorous. But the old man smiled and asked your
manager to call the night off for you and gave him a hundred bucks.
Out of you nervousness you were unconsciously following him going to
his car. And you regained yourself when he opened the door for you. He
laughed and smiled so calmly. You asked a lot of questions and he
generously answered all of them.

Months passed you met his 2 children who have almost the same age
as yours of his oldest son. They were shocked but they welcomed you
warmly. They accepted you and you relationship with their father.
Everyones happy while sharing a lunch together, celebrating the day
of your engagement. You didnt regret a single thing. The old man gave
you emotional happiness. All the longings from your family who
abandoned you were filled by him and his sons. He has the age of a
retired man. But you didnt mind. He respects you and your decisions
that made you decide to love and take care of him until the rest of
your life.
 The day of you wedding day came. All smiles while you were
walking down the aisle but youre not sure of which ones are real. But
you didnt bother its your day; the happiest moment of your life. You
were so beautiful. He was looking at you in your eyes and all you can
see is his outspoken love.

Days and years pass and everything is fine. Enjoying his last
days on earth with you; traveling the world eating in the best
cuisines in different countries. He bought all the books youve wanted
to read. He let you finish your studies and transformed you into a
bolder woman whos ready to face the world even hes already gone. You
laughed and shared all the stories. He told you about his past wife
who died after getting a car crash; his youngest son was only at the
age of 2 that time. After all the long years he never loved someone,
until he found you.

You felt so lucky that time. You didnt expect all these things
would turn this way everything was so perfect and well planned.
Everything was going into places. He even helped you to look for your
family who abandoned you and you were successful. You found your
family on the other side of the country. He introduced himself in the
most polite way even everyones giving you unlikely stares. You were
successful finding them but not by getting hearts. They accepted you
but they still told you not to come back. He was so furious that time
but youre the only person who can calm him. You left the place and
never came back. But because of his kindness he still gave them money
to thank them they brought you to this world even the abandoned you.

You two were walking down the garden of his mansion feeling the
fresh air when you noticed he hold his chest and his face was in pain,
you panicked asked all the guards and maids to ask for help. You
rushed him to the hospital. Tears falling down from your eyes but
still he managed to smile while holding your hand tightly. You were
nervous. Hes about to faint but he fights it.

Shouts from the doctors and the nurses; is all you hear. The beat
of his goes slowly and drastically changes. They were trying to save
him and they were successful. He was brought to the intensive care
unit of the hospital. Machines and respirators were attached to him.
He was unconscious. You can see sadness in everyones eyes. You were
tired of crying but still managed to stay in the hospital and stay
with him.

He was given 3 days for his body to respond. Luckily on his

second day he moved his fingers. But unfortunately on the third day he
had an heart attack and that made him lost his life.

In the middle of the night, you lost a confidante, a husband, a

best friend, a brother and a family. You were crying so hard because
hes the only one you have. You were devastated. The wives of his sons
comforted you, hugged and made you feel better. But nothing worked.
Hes the only one you need. But now hes gone.

On the day of his funeral, everyones looking at you while

you slowly walked into the middle going to his casket. This is the day
youve been scared of. While you were walking all the memories came
back. This feels like the day you walked into the aisle to marry him
and hes waiting for you in the end. But this is the reciprocal of it.
Hes lying in his coffin. Not waiting for you to say your vows and be
with him forever because he left you already. Now you were thinking
of what will happen now hes gone.

While staring at his coffin, someone approached you,

introducing himself as his lawyer. Gave you a paper and asking it for
you to sign, you read it and it says hes giving you fifty percent of
shares in his company. You were shocked. You never asked for this. But
he still gave you what you needed.

The day of his burial came. Everyone was now aware of what
he gave you. Gossips came around for those who do not know you. But
his sons and their wives are there to comfort you. You were not
crying anymore. You got tired of crying because you realized it wont
help. But the others misinterpreted it. Thinking you stopped crying
because you already got what you needed.

Youre the last one who remained in the cemetery. You were
sad. But that made you decide to stand up for yourself. You are a
strong woman; a bold one. So dont ever mind those gossips; how them
who is the woman the old man loved. He molded you into this.
 Dont ever give up in life. Stand up in your own. Show the
best in you. Love again.