When I first set out upon this undertaking, I didnt think that I
could do it. That was mostly because I was concerned about
what people would say. I was mostly seen as odd and lived in a fantasy .After I reprogrammed my thought process , I be gan to see that I could do it and I was doing it , until now i finally AM . No longer did my mistakes of the past, hinder my present and blur my future. In fact the past present and future became vital in reshaping my thought system which was now based on truths of the inner nature. I decided to remove past to programming and replace it with an alignment to what I knew to be true, and allow that to draw me into my future. In that future I saw endless possibilities in myself ranging from how i saw myself in the mirror as well as HOW I WAS PRESENTING MY SELF TO THE WORLD? WAS I BEING THE PERSON THAT IM SUPPOSED TO BE? T here was a strong pull to be the person that Iwas supposed to. Not better than anyone else, no not that. Just a better person. And not so I could say, Hey look at me ive changed, No, not that either. The very people who you want to see you as changing are not going to see it Because theyve been keeping records of your shortcomings and mistakes. They are never going to see it .So the motivation had to be true it could not be for any reason other than that was determined to succeed by my own standards. This brought me to the edge of myself and showed me how to be exactly who i was supposed to be. Not just another person in the world breathing air. I took myself of my thoughts and allowed some truths and inner principles to act as guides and teachers along this step by step journey inward. At first I didnt know what to expect. Would there be flashes of light or epiphanies other phenomenon. No, none of that. Thats not why I was seeking. Wanted to know where I came from. It was about that time that I discovered that I didnt really Know anything. In that unknowing that i began to KNOW.I went from being at the whim of the collective to being my own person who thinks higher and delves deeper. Jumping into my inner I found a lot of mess. Yes that, a mess. That wasnt what I was looking for and it wasnt what i wanted to see, but i had to face it. Take responsibility for myself. Own up to my responsibilities. Forgive people who have wronged you. I had to go through The stuff that i didnt want to see and take it apart and see why they turned out the way they did and my part in it. Now to put things back on a correct path. Again I stress its not so I can say Look what i did! No not that. I just began to let what was slowly silently lovingly working its way from the inside out. What worked its way out of me was what was in there all the time. The Way of the world had taken it away from me that which was great. Not great by the worlds standards. NO not that! I found out if the world gives it to you the world will take it away. I didnt want what the world had to offer. I had something to offer the world. Thats why it was important to become the man i needed to be. I armed myself the greatest weapon in my arsenal LOVE. It was the only thing that i had. But first i had to know that it wasnt a condition outside of me. It was the very thing that I was composed of and you too. Yeah you too the very thing that i thought was missing was already there I just had to accept it in consciousness. Then put it where it wasnt. Thats when it found its way back to me. It was improperly programmed from the beginning. I had to start from point zero and create from there (the way the master did). Willingness to give up material possessions were the instruments that would ultimately be the keys to unlock what was hidden deep inside waiting to arise. Most of it was painful, all of it was made me ask more questions .None of it gave me any answers but i knew where to look. Not friends or familyTheres no way theyd understand. Besides i had enough critics and criticism. And I thank them all because it allowed me to see BEYOND. The more I sought my truth which is yours too by divine birthright the more favor sought me it was already there. Just had to experience or understand THE PRESENCE in consciousness. Allowing the awareness to guide me via intuition showed me how to PRESENT MYSELF TO THE WORLD. As I grew into Tod I found everything I needed to conquer the critics foes and other adversaries .But why fight a losing battle with people in the world who are stuck in my past mistakes when i can encourage people who have been where ive been and are hurting and want the very same thing from an inner perspective. Thats how my past present and future all came into view and gave me a glimpse into eternity. Thats why I NEED TO BE. JUST WHO I AM, FOR SOMEONE WHO IS IN NEED. Thats why the very strong need to become who I need to be and do what it is I need to be doing 7:50 AM 6/15/2009 Working through the past now in the present gave me the tools I needed to see myself through. I was my own tough critic. I adopted the idea in myself that when i walk down the street I wanted people to see me and individual. I worked hard to make Principles work. It didnt. I couldnt make it work. I had to check my motives and redirect my thought process. You see it was working. I had to be the change that I wanted to see as GHANDI did. When I walked down the street I didnt want my race or gender to be the first and only thing that someone would see in me. So I had to make sure that that wasnt the only thing that I saw in people. My goal was to speak and say to 10 people walking down the street even if they didnt back. The tight faces began to loosen up and turned to smiles. Thats when I knew that it was working9:53 AM 6/16/2009 I had begun to have an effect on my environment rather let it dictate to me and affect me. I was being the change that i wished to see. And it was reflecting itself back to me. Now to take it to the next level. If I could witness what was happening due to a shift in my thought process, how about if I looked further into myself to see what was actually going on. I had already Been keeping a journal which was tracking my own individual progress. I found that the thoughts Id been writing were actually happening. Thats when i made sure the thoughts that had were conducive to what i was trying To produce. And that they came from the right plac for the right reason. I had to align myself with the positive. Not asking for anything that was not for me. But knowing that whatever i asked for i could have by my Divine Birthright. I looked at the things that occurred and it drew me in more... to myself...and beyond. More and more questions. 8:53 AM 6/17/2009At times there were more questions than answers, but i knew that if i stayed The course id finds MY way. And Id succeeds at it by my own standards, not the common standard of the world. It runs by a different set of standards.Id raised the bar. And i was determined to win by it. My success would not be measured by money, people or opinions. It would be and was measured by the amount of artillery was in my arsenal. Not the amount that i was getting, no, not that. I got back the amount corresponded to what i was willing to give. In spite of what it looked like on the outside. What I was made of was determined to come through. The only weapon in my arsenal could melt the hardest heart. I knew because it melted mine. Now to take it outside of myself and apply it in the worst case scenario. To put love in the place of fear and anger is not the wisest thing to do, BY THE WORLDS STANDARDS. But lets not forget my reason for doing this was not for WORLD STANDARDS. Stay tuned..
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