An Ultimate Goal of a frustrated eloquent and fluent English Speaker/Teacher

INTRODUCTION
Today February 01, 2013, Friday at 10:23 in the evening, I am listening to Sandy Pattis
album Hymns of Faith. I just finished reading the Scriptures; Romans 8. I feel wonderful
after reading Gods Words. I am again reminded about Gods unconditional love
towards His children. I am so grateful that God counted me as one of His servants,
children, and friends to enjoy His wonderful plan of salvation through our Lord and
Saviour Jesus Christ. Despite the disappointments I have caused, still causing and will
be causing Him, Gods love and forgiveness never fail. I am so much grateful for that
really.
Tonight, (sigh) I want to start a new hobbit; a hobbit of writing. Since I graduated with a
degree in Bachelor of Arts/Bachelor of Science-Bachelor in Secondary Education
majored in English, I might as well do my best to live to that title I have. I dont know
how I managed to graduate with that major when I am not really good at English. In fact,
until now I am still having difficulty expressing myself in English.
At present, I teach at Brookes Point National High School. I teach two subjects: Araling
Panlipunan and English. I am okay with the former but facing a lot of challenges
everyday with the latter. I want to give my students several illustrations, analogies,
stories and what not to make our lessons more exciting and interesting but my shortage
of vocabularies in English made that thing impossible. I always leave my classes
frustrated and disappointed with myself as their English teacher. For me, I am an
English teacher. I should have a better grasp of the English language. But I am way too
far from that standard.
I am doing this composition as a way to improve myself. I told myself if I keep on writing
in English I eventually be somehow good at it. I know this will take me a lot of time to
practice because there are so many things that I still need to learn. I know this simple
writing exercise will help me improve little by little. I am looking forward to being able to
communicate in English fluently someday. This composition is just a start of my journey.
This is my first step to my dream of being an eloquent and fluent English speaker
someday.
JOURNAL ENTRY 1

February 2, 2013 Saturday at 11:09 in the evening. We just had finished watching the
movie Chinese Zodiac, an action film of Jackie Chan. I watched it because it was
allegedly said to be Jackie Chans last action film. In the news, Jackie Chan said that he
had an accident while taping the movie. He realized that he is getting old and he will not
be on earth forever. So, he decided to stop making action movies. However he can still
make films in other genre like drama. With this, I was intrigued how the plot went in his
movie Chinese Zodiac enough to cause him his safety. So, when my cousin Rande
asked us whether we wanted to see a movie, I immediately asked him if he had
Chinese Zodiac. When he said yes, I told him to start the movie right away. The movie
was fantastic. It is worth watching a second time.

On the other hand, I felt so good today. I have so many reasons. First, I started reading
the 3
rd
book of Equip to Serve Discipleship Training Series. Second, I learned how to
drive a motorbike. I used Tita Ednas brand new motorbike. Tita Delia, together with Ate
Meme, taught and assisted me to drive it. At first, I had difficulty balancing the thing but
later with much concentration I managed to run it without any assistance. Praise God for
His guidance and protection. I didnt fall.

We have an outage tonight but I dont mind staying up late to write these things.
Anyway, I am not yet drowsy. By the way, tomorrow I plan to write an essay about the
article on meditation in ETS students handbook. I hope I wont feel lazy (with fingers
crossed).

It is Sunday again tomorrow; another wonderful day to fellowship with my fellow
believers in our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, listen to preaching of Gods Words, and
worship the Almighty God with thanksgiving and praises through singing. Okay, I have
to sleep now. I dont want to have heavy eyes while inside the church. Signing out!


JOURNAL ENTRY 2

Sunday at last February 3, 2013 at 8:10 in the evening. For the first time, I do
something personal in front of a television. Tonight, Rea is sitting beside me. Shes
enjoying the movie The Pirates of the Caribean: On Stanger Tides while I work with my
journal.

I went this morning to church. Again my thoughts wandered while Pastor Catalan was
preaching. I dont understand why I cannot focus on his message; maybe because he
seemed not prepared. I found his message was shallow. Sorry for judging him. I know I
am not in the position to judge anyone. I think I was used to Pastor Juns ways in
preaching the scriptures. He studies his topic carefully, profoundly, and seriously. Oh,
maybe Im just expecting too much from pastor Catalan. (Sigh). Next time, if the Lord
will permit, I will try to listen to him very closely. I hope I can control my thought from
wandering. Anyway, the message this morning was taken from the book of Haggai. The
lesson I got from the preaching was I must use my resources to glorify God because
everything I have comes from Him alone; no one else.

This afternoon, tita Delia practiced driving the car while I followed her behind on a
bicycle which I borrowed from tito Dodong this morning on my way back home from the
church. Everything went well so far. We didnt run somebody over and we didnt bump
into something as well.









JOURNAL ENTRY 3

February 4, 2013 at 8:58 in the evening, I want to shout eeeeeerrrrrrrrgggggggg out
loud! I sucked today in my class. I dont know why every time I speak in front of the
class my tongue got twisted. I felt as if my jaws were locked. I want to say many things.
My ideas were overflowing but I cannot understand why I cant express them in words.
Perhaps, I am not that good in English. Just so I thought. Anyways, I will improve soon.
I just need a lot of opportunities to practice.

I went to First Consolidated Bank today. I was there to open a savings account. I would
deposit the Php15,000 cheque from my dad. He sent it to me so that I will have money
to pay my debts to Tita Delia and Tita Enda. Unfortunately, the place experienced an
outage while I was about to go to the internet shop to have my valid ID photocopied. In
short, I wasnt able to finish my transactions with the bank. Tomorrow, Im going back
again to FCB just to get my account number and to deposit the cheque.

I and Tita Delia had our driving lessons. I fell from the motorcycle. Praise God I fell onto
the grassy ground. I managed to jump out of the bike before it fell.