MY LOST LOVER...

MY WORLD In the beginning I was there Watching you be scared, I was scared with you When I tripped and fell and they all laughed, you helped me up Life was a word you taught me to define with precision I felt like I was born with a purpose, to take care of you and me It was fun watching you draw, watching you dance but my favourite part...... ...was watching you guard and define my world!!

That was in the beginning, and then came the real test of what we have come to build I watched it fall apart with helplessness that made me what I am to this day...derailed! She came in and she flipped all memory of me right out into space She didnt even leave a crumble of me within you and you began to see through me, I rendered invincible That was not even the most hurtful part... it was just hard watching you learn to un-love me You deny it, it hurt even more, hypocritical even to the end u were! I fell silent, numbness conquered me

I could live with a little pride when you could have made an attempt to be a friend once in a while That was not even the thing you remembered to do, you were heaved by ignorance I did not hold a grudge, because U see my God pulled me out of the pit U threw me in It was sad really, but sadness is something I have come to ignore, it does not exist in me anymore You used to smile and I would get sad because the smile was not meant for me When you got sad I would cry Because that was the only thing I learnt to do since I promised to always have your back What is stupendously ironic; when I said I have your back...you gave it to me literally I lost my pride, but mostly I lost my smile and my purpose You never grasped the concept...you were my purpose, my world!!!!

Then lastly came the end, what goes up must come down, you must have missed that class too At the peak of your happiness, she let you come down hard, burst all your balls in the process The pieces of what used to be you got scattered all over the earth and carried in the wind

I tried to find each piece because I always considered it my job to restore I never thought I would get so tired of travelling all over trying to find each part From thinking back to when I met you, to when I was with you, to every day of our lives I still failed to recover even a single piece of what you once were... simply my world!!! The virtuous would hate because she destroyed the sun in somebody else`s planet But I envy her abilities, it is not everyday you get to meet the devil without a disguise She made sure she finished you off so that nobody else could have you You became somewhat a lost soul, stuck in a place not knowing how to cross over

What is sad, even now you still worship her shadow and I worship yours Irony is really my favourite figure of speech...experience my favourite teacher!!! Yours would have to be...metaphors, because you had always said things you dont mean!! I believed in my dreams, they were made up of us doing what they rendered impossible...smooth sailing through life! My life has become a sight for despondency; yours an expedition for grief, reality still eludes you The ugly truth...the wheel of life rotates The grisly fact...is knowing you lost yourself and lost me a world!!!

People`s differences have always intrigued me! Some are born hypocrites; some just get to become valedictorians in that class Some are born politicians; you sit next to them you walk away with a theory Some are born pretty, they bet eyelashes and they are blessed Some are born afraid; you clear your throat and they squirm Some are born sharp; they can sail through any conundrum anywhere Some are born rich; you cannot take opportunities away from them I always surmised that you were born a conqueror; you conquered my doubts a while ago Perhaps you were born only to love; you loved me once with a wondrous ardour Maybe you were born for pain; you had been numbed by betrayal from your preferences I can ascertain this though without qualm...you were born a world, a window of glee, my world!! Lamentably...you are still lost in the pain; nevertheless you are forever and always my world!!