Constructive Wallowing: How to Beat Bad Feelings by Letting Yourself Have Them
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The title is what drew me to this book. As a person who wallows on occasion, I thought it would be beneficial to read about how to channel that emotion into something more productive or helpful. While I am glad that Gilbertson takes the stance of letting yourself feel the emotions, I found myself only reading a page or two, then putting the book down for weeks at a time before coming back to it. I will take away the basics of this book, but it is not something I will keep on my shelf and constantly reference.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5This book is written in large print with large line-spacing and uses graphics to fill the pages. The result is a large book that would otherwise be rather small. It is more of a manual with tests and activities. I learnt a good deal from this book about having one's emotions, and it supplements Stoic philosophy neatly in that it provides a way to "have" one's emotions without necessarily acting on them. For the Stoics, we have our emotions but it is our behaviour that is good or bad, rather than the external event. I have found Stoic philosophy useful in that through daily practice and reflection, one can learn to accept what one can and cannot control, and be "indifferent" to external events. But to be Stoic is different from being stoic, yet there is little to address the emotions that one inevitably "has", other than to choose how one reacts to one's emotions. Gilbertson's approach is like a Stoicism for the emotions. Through daily practice, one can learn to experience one's emotions through (w)allowing. An interesting approach to understanding emotions is to exchange the words think and feel in a sentence. If the words are not interchangeable, then it is a feeling. For example, "I feel angry" does not work as "I think angry". Whereas "I think I have been treated unjustly" and "I feel I have been treated unjustly" are interchangeable, hence the former is an emotion but the latter is not. Recognising and giving names to one's emotions is one approach to let emotions happen (as opposed to acting on them). Keeping a three-times daily journal to record how one feels over a two-week period is an interesting way to recognise emotional patterns and to practice recognising, naming, and experiencing one's emotions. I must admit that most of the book made me cringe a little, and I found myself unable to read it in public - the thought of someone seeing me reading this book probably explains why I scored a 14 on the test, and therefore I probably need to (w)allow in private! Like Stoic journalling, I can see the point in (w)allowing, and the drip, drip, drip of experience and reflection working to improve oneself. The final straw was on reflecting on how I feel/think, I stumbled upon "I feel guilty/I think guilty" - here I am naming my emotion. But no, there is a section devoted to guilty - being guilty is a fact, not an emotion. Obviously I have much to learn and while I still cringe at this book, I will be adding some of Gilbertson's activities to my daily journalling ritual, which at present includes James Allen (referred to by Gilbertson), La Rochefoucauld, and The Daily Stoic, and I will see what happens. I found Gilbertson's work via my subscription to Psychology Today, and I have since read many of her articles which are available online.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Received this book from the Early Reviewer group. I found the concept of accepting bad feelings interesting. I agree with what she writes in that we are "trained" to "try to look on the bright side" and that we shouldn't be feeling "bad" when other people have it worse. She pretty much described my belief about not "wallowing" because we're not supposed to be doing that. I am planning to explore this "bad" side of myself by following her T-R-U-T-H technique on some issues I am currently going through. It made me realize that I need to love myself completely both good and what I think of as the "bad" side.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Should you just let it all out. Many of us are taught at a young age to stop feeling sorry for ourselves and move on. Feelings were not something we would show, at least not on purpose. This book suggests that self-awareness and self-acceptance are the essence of healing. I agree with the author that it is time for us to allow ourselves for have feelings without feeling guilty. This book will work for quite a few people if they want to work through their hurt past and other emotional problems.The only problem I have with the book is her statement that drugs just depress your feelings and suggests not using antidepressants. . There is a time and a place for using drugs. I feel they are being overused and should be used for a limited amount of time until you can start getting your emotional heath stable.
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- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5I started off this books with high hopes, but I have to say I was disappointed. Although I agree 100% with her philosophy that you should accept and process your feelings rather then stuffing them in the closet, the way she presented the material came off as "gimmicky." It's clear that she used to be in the entertainment business, and I wasn't entirely confident that she fully made the transition into mental health care. This book would have been better if she had taken a more professional approach rather than relying on cute phrases and plays on words to get her point across. It made her appear desperate to appear clever, and subsequently a much less reliable source of information. I do like the worksheets, though, as well as all the quotes she chose. They definitely gave me some food for thought in dealing with my clients who suffer from anxiety.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5My MIdwestern self learned early to keep a stiff upper lip. I suppose it has its advantages, but it did mean that negative feelings and reactions were suppressed- to the point that I cracked a number of teeth by clenching my teeth so often and hard.This seems like a better way. It encourages you to really feel your feelings, rather than suppressing them- and I've only been trying to do the exercises a short time, but in that time, I have become more relaxed and happier. Felt and acknowledged, the feelings pass; sat upon- they stick around, to nobody's advantage.I got this book through LibraryThing's Early Reviewer's program, and read it through quickly at first- but it made so much sense that I decided to work through it more carefully, and actually DO the exercises. That was a good choice on my part, because while the theory is good, the practice makes a lot of difference.I know there are other self-help books around with a similar message. What really makes a difference for me with this one is the use of "wallowing" in the title- it got me over my stiff-upper-lip stubbornness.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5While this book has some helpful ways to get past the desire to shut all of your emotions up in a locked box, I felt as though Gilbertson ignored the concept that sometimes emotions come back to haunt us no matter how often and freely they might be felt... perhaps her take on this would be that I have not fully felt my emotions having to do with a divorce and lost time with my children. Yes, I will work to do some of the activities listed, including learning to release physical tension and writing notes of forgiveness to myself for those things I am ready and willing to forgive. Perhaps it will help, but I will be honest in that I don't see it being the end-all be-all solution she claims it is.In the week of reading this book, I have allowed myself to accept and (w)allow in my feelings more than once, and yes, the tears did stop more quickly than I am used to, but it has not decreased the frequency of the emotional attacks. All in all, I think there are good take-aways within this book, but primarily for people not battling chemical imbalances or longer-term depression.
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5I felt like this book was basically just saying notice all the feelings you have, especially the painful ones. It is a good point, but not enough substance for a whole book. Also the author puts jokes in the book that seemed to detract from the flow of the book. For example on page 4 there is a place where you are suppose to stop reading and take a test. The author writes " I'll wait while you get a pencil. (Take your time; I've got a magazine and a snack.)"Finally, on page 92 the author wrote something that really bothered me about antidepressants. It wasn't a main idea of the book, but she wrote " Also, because of how feelings work, it's just not possible to suppress the unpleasant ones without suppressing all of them. Anyone who takes an anti-depressant that works will tell you it's also an anti-thrillant." This seems like she is anti medication and doesn't really understand who antidepressants work.I was not impressed by this book.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I got this book from Library Thing Early Reviewers.This was a good book dealing with the need to embrace all of our emotions, including allowing time to wallow. Nobody wants to be a complainer, but the author suggests that by ignoring our less than happy feelings leaves us stuck. The author recommends wallowing as a way to put negative feelings in the past. This was an easy to read book with some handy wallowing worksheets in the back.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I got this copy from Library Things Early Reviewer program. It's pretty much a solid 5 for me in terms of brilliancy, but I have a few minor complaints.I am a licensed therapist and I use a method called ACT, Acceptance and Commitment Therapy. This book fits nicely with my way of thinking. Which is to say, accept all of your feelings and feel them fully - then behave according to your values and not necessarily your feelings. This seems simple but it's pretty much NOT very simple! We have all kinds of ways of critiquing, judging and minimizing our feelings. Ms. Gilbertson brings tons of new metaphors, stories and techniques to the table that really help in this endeavor. I've already passed along the book to a client and I plan to buy 20 copies and give them to everyone I meet! Good stuff.A couple of minor complaints: Ms. Gilbertson does not allow for any exceptions. If you fully feel your feelings without criticism, you WILL feel better. She even says that antidepressants blunt feelings (and I assume, are therefore no good and should never be used..? That was my impression). While I DO believe that feeling your feelings fully & without judgement USUALLY leads to feeling better, I resist having that be the goal. In ACT, you feel your feelings fully and without judgement because you commit to being fully human. Feeling better is often a happy result. But there IS such a real thing as chemically imbalanced individuals, there can be lots more going on. And I've seen antidepressants save lives at times. I agree it's over prescribed, but to use her own logic, let's not throw the baby out with the bathwater.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I received "Constructive Wallowing" by Tina Gilbertson from the LibraryThings's free book giveaway.I must say that the title was what most intrigued me to read this book, and I was enthusiastic about learning how to explore and deal with my feelings better. This book challenges the common mindset of "keeping a stiff upper lip" and "pulling yourself up by the boot straps" when we deal with difficult and hurtful situations. The idea of identifying and confronting emotions is a very scary endeavor, but many things that are worthwhile are not easy to perform.I like how the author provides exercises to characterize feelings and details an entire action plan on how to deal with uncomfortable situations and feelings. The real life stories that are described really show how important it is to address emotions as they arise. Some of the descriptions are heartfelt and shocking, but demonstrate everyone needs to "open a window" to how they are feeling. We always hear people say that if we don't address issues, they only grow and become worse. Well, emotions follow the same formula, but many people are not taught to focus on feelings. We are often educated to just be strong and ignore them. However, facing up to our emotions actually takes a great deal of courage and fortitude.I am glad that an entire section is devoted on choosing a therapist because many of us may need professional wisdom to deal with past and present feelings. In addition, although she describes antidepressants as not allowing us to feel, I believe that if someone truly needs them, they can still utilize her approach as part of a total mental health program. I think that if one is depressed, they may not be able to fully engage in constructive wallowing, so a little help from medication may be in order.As a whole, I think the book was a good read. The structure and lay out was welled planned and easy to follow. I recommend this book to anyone struggling with difficult emotions and situations.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The essential argument is that allowing yourself to really feel your feelings and not deny them is healthy and will eventually make you happier. It presents several tools for talking yourself into doing so, many of which I found useful.Unfortunately, it has the conceit of acting like this is the ONE ANSWER you need to solve all your problems. I found the attitude pretty grating. I'm happy to have it as an addition to my toolbox though.
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Constructive Wallowing - Tina Gilbertson
Introduction
THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF WALLOWING
I like the phrase constructive wallowing
because the pieces seem to contradict each other. Constructive is a good thing, but wallowing is bad. Right?
If this odd combination of words caught your attention, maybe it’s because you think wallowing in feelings, especially rotten ones, is just not a great use of your time. I can understand that; most people would rather spend their down time alphabetizing their cleaning supplies than stewing about office politics or crying over things they can’t control.
But if you’re not taking the time to pay attention to all your emotions, including the so-called negative
ones, you could be seriously missing out. I mean on life. You could be passing up the good stuff: happiness, growth, and emotional freedom. You could be saying, No thanks!
to more motivation, interest, and energy to pursue your dreams.
Emotions are energy. All of them—not just the good ones. Would you willingly shut off your own power source?
As a mental health counselor working with individual adults, I often hear people who are unhappy about something say, "I don’t want to wallow. They usually say the word as if they’re talking about licking the bottom of a wading pool in a doggie daycare facility. And while I understand perfectly that wallowing in yucky feelings is unpleasant, I still like to answer,
Why not? What’s so bad about wallowing?" (I can be like that, just to warn you.)
That conversation is often the beginning of a paradigm shift for the person in the client’s chair. It changes their sense of the way things are, and opens up new possibilities for who they can become.
It’s a shift I’ve been through myself, and for me it opened doors I didn’t even know were there. Once I was able to understand that all my emotions were acceptable, not just the happy ones, I was able to embrace all that I am as a person. This led to a much-desired career change for me. All my life I’d known there was something special I wanted to do, if only I could figure out what it was. Learning how to deal with my feelings in a self-compassionate way helped me get in touch with my whole self, which included my purpose. It was only then that I could see the path under my feet.
I became a therapist to support others in developing compassion for themselves and all their feelings, so they could become who they’re meant to be. I wanted to teach people how to wallow constructively so they could not only reach for their potential, but heal from past hurts and feel better about themselves right this minute.
I thought of the book’s title one day after talking with a client—let’s call him Vance—a financial analyst who was going through a painful breakup. I’d had scores of conversations with people in various challenging circumstances, and I was hearing for the umpteenth time from Vance the familiar I don’t want to wallow
speech.
He assured me that he didn’t have the time or the desire to wallow in his feelings about losing his girlfriend. He just needed some tools for coping better
because, as it happened, he was starting a demanding new job at the very same time.
When I asked him about it, Vance couldn’t point to any ways in which he was coping badly. He was getting dressed every day, taking care of necessary tasks, even going out with friends. Suicide never entered his mind. Nevertheless, understandably, he was suffering. He was distracted by insistent feelings of sadness and anger and grief.
I remember thinking, Why does Vance think he’s not coping well, just because he’s having feelings?
The timing of the split certainly wasn’t ideal; Vance could have used some down time to regroup before diving into a new job. No one wants to be sad, angry, or preoccupied while trying to learn the ropes in an unfamiliar environment. But circumstances being what they were, he just ended up with too much on his plate at once. Any human being in his position would have found it impossible to feel serene and in control the way Vance wanted to.
Like so many people I’ve talked with, Vance hadn’t taken the time to acknowledge the intense and challenging nature of his present circumstances. Without consciously deciding to, he was treating himself as a sort of superhero who could withstand a hail of emotional bullets without pausing in his forward movement, let alone being pierced. He believed he was supposed to roll with whatever came his way without missing a step or even feeling uncomfortable. He seemed to see himself as an armored robot, programmed for productivity. So when he had normal emotions that affected his mood, he thought something was wrong with him!
As I said, Vance is far from alone in thinking this way; I see this superhero mentality in one client after another who comes in stressed out, depressed, and feeling stuck.
If only everyone knew how much more constructive it is to wallow in feelings rather than trying to ignore them and forge ahead, we’d all be able to move forward in work and in love without getting stuck so often in what feels like emotional quicksand.
The breakup-and-new-job combination made for a bumpy ride over the next few weeks, but Vance endured and eventually found peace, both at work and in another relationship. There’s wisdom in the notion that what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. What we might need, though, is a new definition of strength that doesn’t require ignoring ourselves.
If you’re tired of
•trying to ignore difficult feelings
•doing something constructive every minute of the day, and/or
•feeling down on yourself because of a lack of motivation,
this book will offer you a practical and effective alternative to kicking yourself when you’re down.
Whatever skills, habits, or tools you’ve already got going for you, you can keep. I’ll ask you to give up only what’s weighing you down and working against you. You can’t lose; you can only gain.
If you’d simply like to be able to do a little wallowing and actually feel good about it, well, then you’ve come to the right place.
What Would You Do If You Lost Everything?
Natasha
Eighteen-year-old Natasha is a bright, athletic college student who loves to hike and explore the wilderness. Ever since she could walk she’s spent almost all her free time in the forest on the rolling hills near her home. As a child she would often disappear among the leaves for hours, climbing trees, examining every surface, and eating the lunch she’d brought in her backpack to save her having to go home too soon.
Her parents learned not to worry because of how well she knew the forest and how agile and strong she was. Besides, it was impossible to keep her out of the woods!
Her family and friends always knew that Natasha would find a way to make a living enjoying and protecting her favorite habitat. No one was surprised when she applied and was accepted to the forestry program at the local university.
Natasha chose to continue living at home while going to school. Her parents bought her a good road bike that she could use for commuting.
One cold November morning during her very first year, as she’s riding her still-new bike to the university under a threatening gray sky, a speeding car runs a red light and drives straight into Natasha. She’s thrown from her bike alive but unconscious and seriously injured.
She spends the next month in a coma. When she wakes up, her mind is intact—she was wearing a helmet and escaped a brain injury—but she feels nothing below her waist.
Natasha learns that she was hit by a drunk driver at 7:45 a.m. on a Tuesday, that her spinal cord was severed irreparably, and that she’s permanently lost the use of her legs.
At first she can’t believe she’ll never again go on long, solitary hikes off the beaten path on those forested hills, or ride the bike her parents bought her, which was mangled beyond repair. But eventually she realizes it’s true; in one horrible moment, life as she knew it is over for Natasha.
In the face of this unfathomable loss, Natasha tries to maintain a positive attitude, concentrating on the fact that she survived. Her family and friends encourage her to focus on what she can do, not what she can’t. Natasha makes everyone proud with her unconquerable spirit and will to go on.
Between rehabilitation sessions with physical and occupational therapists, she distracts herself from bad feelings about what happened with inspiring movies and healing affirmations. Whenever she starts to feel angry or blue, she turns her mind to all the things she’s grateful for.
One year after the accident, Natasha’s fractured bones have healed, and she’s returned to college. She’s become skilled at using a wheelchair to get around, but, despite her efforts to stay positive, she seems to be getting more depressed instead of less so.
Her negative
feelings frustrate her, and she reads one inspirational book after another to keep her spirits up. One day when she’s feeling especially down, she angrily thinks, When will I move on from this?
Dan
Twenty-eight years old and unable to find a job, Dan decides to enlist in the military. He’s healthy and intelligent, but hasn’t yet found his calling. He likes the thought of learning on the job and having steady employment in precarious economic times.
Maybe he’ll be an Army man, he thinks, just like his uncle. But Dan is thorough. He visits recruiters from all the branches of the military before he makes his choice: The Army it will be!
In a very short time he’s passed the military aptitude test with flying colors. Next he survives basic training, and, a few months after that, he’s a newly minted topographic surveyor. Less than a year after enlisting, he finds himself stationed overseas.
While working with a team in the baking sun to erect a survey tower in a dusty valley, Dan notices unusual disturbances in the dirt near where they’ve set up. Just as he’s bending down to get a better look, someone in front of him steps on a mine!
The blinding flash of light is the last thing Dan will ever see. Projectiles from the explosion destroy both his eyes and part of his left hand, ending his short military career as well as the life he knows as a sighted person. The man who stepped on the mine is thrown several feet and badly injured, but survives. No one else is seriously hurt.
Back at home, Dan is overwhelmed by anger. Why me?
he thinks, and punches his pillow. He wishes he’d tried harder to find a job as a civilian before joining the Army. Things would be so different if he just hadn’t enlisted. What on earth was he thinking? He’s plagued by regret.
He doesn’t want to go through the rest of his life as a damned cripple,
and there are days when he refuses to get out of bed. Everything seems to make him angry.
Gradually Dan becomes aware of a profound sadness under the rage. He’ll never see the faces of his future children, if he even has them. Thinking about what might have been, he cries wrenching tears that come from deep within his soul.
Over time, the tears fall less often. A new interest in life begins to sneak in at the edges of his grief. During his rehabilitation Dan has become adept at touch typing—so much so that he’s filled several reams of paper with his thoughts, feelings, and observations. He discovers a quiet joy in writing that he’s always known but never paid much attention to.
A year after the explosion, Dan has made long strides in adjusting to his disability and is filled with purpose as he works on writing his first book. He’s engaged to the warm-hearted occupational therapist who patiently helped him re-train in the tasks of daily living, and they’re looking forward to starting a life and a family together.
At times he’s frustrated by his disability, but Dan is far from depressed. He has up
days and down
days, exactly like anyone else.
Why is Dan, who started out with so much regret, anger, and sadness about what happened to him, now feeling so much better than Natasha?
By the time you finish reading this book, I hope the answer will be clear.
What If You Have Everything and Still Aren’t Happy?
It’s easy to feel compassion for people like Natasha and Dan, whose losses are so readily apparent. But when it comes to the small losses, irritations, upsets, and annoyances that the vast majority of us suffer daily and weekly, year in and year out, how much compassion do we have for ourselves? Chances are we compare ourselves to people like Natasha and Dan and say, It could be worse
or At least I’ve got my health.
In this effort to look on the bright side, we succeed in cutting ourselves off from needed understanding and support.
Let’s take Natasha’s and Dan’s circumstances off the table for a moment. Maybe it will be easier to see something of yourself in Kendra, whose suffering is far less dramatic although no less real. Kendra has her health, a loving husband and two children, and enough money to live comfortably. She feels she has no right whatsoever to complain about anything. Yet she’s not happy.
For the past ten years, thirty-eight-year-old Kendra has been thinking of starting a business selling her handmade jewelry. Her husband supports the idea, but so far she hasn’t done very much to get started. She feels trapped in what she considers a dead-end job as an office manager that takes up most of her time, most days each week. Evenings and weekends, she usually finds she has no energy to work on her business goal.
Kendra often feels bad about herself, especially when she doesn’t feel like doing the things she knows she should as a budding entrepreneur—building a website, taking a class, or attending a networking event. She’s also focused on what she sees as her pathological inability to get to the gym after work, even though she wants to be more fit.
Kendra’s experiencing a serious lack of motivation. She knows what she should
be doing, but she never seems to feel like doing it. The jewelry she’s made in the past gathers dust in her garage. These days, she barely even feels like making new pieces, something that used to be fun and exciting for her.
Because she’s not laid up in a hospital bed with traumatic injuries, Kendra tells herself she has no excuse and zero tolerance
for not being more active. Her self-image sinks lower every year. The only solution she can think of is to push herself harder. Just do it!,
she urges herself. Sometimes this works for a little while. Other times, when she doesn’t follow through, it just makes her feel worse.
Kendra isn’t exactly alone in her predicament. She has a built-in drill sergeant. It’s the insistent voice of her self-critical thoughts.
In real life, a drill sergeant is supposed to be tough; he or she is teaching people how to be soldiers. They need to learn skills that could mean the difference between life and death on the battlefield.
But Kendra’s not a soldier. She’s a civilian who lives in comparative safety. She doesn’t need a drill sergeant yelling at her while she watches TV: What do you think you’re doing? You should be more pro-DUCK-tive!
When she decides to stay home and read a book instead of attending a networking event, her inner drill sergeant screams, You should be ashamed of yourself! What do you think this is? A pleasure cruise?!?
When it’s all just too much and Kendra’s tears of frustration get the better of her, the drill sergeant is right there to ridicule and shame her: My 98-year-old grandmother is tougher than you! Now stop your whining and get back out there!
Kendra’s drill sergeant has been with her so long, she doesn’t remember when he first showed up. She doesn’t even know what life would be like without this critical character.
She often wishes he’d go away, but, at the same time, she believes she needs him. Kendra doesn’t realize that what would really motivate her is an inner caring friend instead of the harsh drill sergeant.
Kendra is so used to the critical tone of her own thinking that it never occurs to her she might not deserve this harsh treatment. More to the point, the drill sergeant’s yelling is not actually helping her accomplish her goals! It’s just making her feel worse about herself, further sapping her motivation and energy.
Kendra has never imagined what it could be like to have an inner caring friend who says, You’re so tired; I can understand your desire to rest. Let me get you a pillow.
The very thought of